Verdict's in!

It's a boy!

You can interpret that exclamation point in a variety of ways...I'm not quite sure how I intend it myself actually. Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against having a boy in and of itself. I just felt so strongly that it was a girl that I almost feel like something's wrong! I didn't realize how much I was mentally prepping for a girl. Now when I look at all the things I had planned or bookmarked for the baby's room or registry, even at the time thinking I was being gender neutral, everything feels WAY too girly. I think I had also grown really attached to the girl name we had picked out. And it's not that I don't want to plan for a boy, but I feel like the past 3-4 months of planning are now "wasted" because I feel like I have to start from scratch. Yes, I know it's not entirely true, but that's how I feel...and lately I have no explanation or reasoning for how I feel lol

I think another thing that puts a damper on my excitement is the unfamiliarity of a boy. Again, it's more about my personality of having to have things planned and under control more than the fact that it's actually a boy. I think I just assumed a girl would be way easier because I would know what to do with a girl, being one myself. Now with a boy there's all these things I keep thinking I'll encounter that are going to be SO foreign to me! I know, I know, even if it was a girl doesn't mean she'd be anything like me, so it would probably be just as foreign. That's my logical thought process but it didn't affect how I felt that way. I joked with Matt when we left the dr. office "well, it's a boy, he's yours!".

I know I'll get over it, I already feel a lot better today than I did yesterday. I think it's just going to take time to adjust my thinking to "boy" instead of "girl". And I also think that once Thanksgiving is over and I can actually get into the room and start implementing some of my basic ideas that it will come together.

In the meantime, yes, it's a boy. Yes, we're excited, but don't expect me to be bouncing off the walls just yet. It's not the boy that bums me out, it's the thinking about planning for "a boy" that's stressing me out and killing a little bit of the excitement for me lol It helps not to dwell on it too much, yet...I'm sure once I'm over it I'll be ridiculously annoying about how excited I am again :)

17 Weeks

17 weeks along and I can finally say I'm feeling good! Well, I have for the past 2 weeks but I've been a little busy! I've found that if I am consistent with taking my prenatal vitamins every night then I don't get any headaches and have a good amount of energy. But if I skip taking them, then about 2 days after I skipped one I'll have a bad day with headaches and fatigue. It's nice to know I can actively do something about how I was feeling and it's a good motivation to take the vitamins (I was not very good at remembering to take them...).

The past 2 weeks or so were insanely busy with trying to get ready for the Light of Christmas boutique. As always, I told myself I would work on my products all throughout the year but didn't start until a week before the boutique was happening. Throw in there hosting the annual non-Halloween Halloween party and spending a day down in San Diego with Sheena to see the So You Think You Can Dance tour and the day the boutique was over I slept 13 hours! But it was a fun week regardless of them not doing "I Got You" and the rain and cold that threatened the boutique. One big perk was that my mom came to help get the house ready for the party which meant my shower and kitchen sink got really good scrubbings!

Now that I feel like I'm finally showing enough to not just look chubby (hehe) I need to take some preggo belly pictures. Oh! And that reminds me, I'm SOOO super excited to have scheduled my maternity photo session with an old friend. It's not until March but I've been waiting for a reason to take a real family photo session every since my wedding. Learned the hard way then that pictures are worth investing in so this time around I'm not skimping.